an old post.
In continuation to my struggle of winning an women’s heart, i am still getting tumbled. i have no courage to express my like for her. i have no opportunity to take chance of telling my love to her. with these pulling down factors in my mind, i still keep a hope of win in this phase of my life. its funny…!! .When i share few of my concerns, difficulties i meet in this regard to my friends and near people, they advice me with some consoling words like….”true love never fails”..”honest heart can never get hurt..” ..”she too loves you equally,praveen..! “ “… No girl will come out to express her love first, its you who has to take the call…” and so on.
So,where do i stand now..? The answer is..” where i was at the beginning..” 
other than few people getting to know about things happening with me partially and unclearly.There are a set of heads, who knew all about my pain and problem encapsulated in my deep heart. I never show up my feelings so easily in peoples front. Anyway its the quality of friends who can diagnose you from the layers of skin. I am now 7 seas far from every one, and my special one too. My friends call me up, mail me asking..” how do i feel now, missing her..? ” I can understand their intention of asking, it is not that, i am gaining unbearable weight of unexpressed love..its the strength of increased love proportional to the incremented distance between our hearts..”
I say them, anything can happen in the mean time. the probability is very high that, circumstances can take her even more far from me. The day i come back home, the physical distance can get splashed away, but the influencing factors ( ….) can create a vacuum, where my words and feelings can not travel, can not have its existence and has no value.
Does, she know all these…? i have no clue for this. all i know(feel) is, she looks happy in my presence.certainly i have the same place like other people who she know. Praveen has no priority in her mind and heart. She is unbaised. The best thing i like in her. As per the psychology study- “our instincts will get to know things before we really start to think about them…” If this is true, then she knew where i placed her in my life..! I want to promise her of giving every happiness i can in this world. I pledge to her parents that, i will never make her feel their absence. I love her.!
What if i give a try..? Is it taking a test of luck. If she like me equally, her conditions may not make her to speak out. This may result in different way. The normal routines will become abnormal and unusual. Things that keep me happy and give the hope will no longer be alive. i don’t want to miss these things.i dont want to miss you…the words behind will can never be heard, my feelings can never be felt…and your place can not be given to some one else. she is precious,she is unique and down to earth for me…! As i care you and your opinions i keep my consensus deep in heart, infact supressed them a lot. What shall i do..now?
Travelling over the seas, Leaving the land of blossoms
Am travelling USA this weekend. Have a thousand smiles reason to celebrate the travel occasion. I will meeting my very special people of life.MY FRIENDS.There are millions worth concerns to worry about. I will be missing Hyderabad and …for a uncertain period of time.Anything can happen…or nothing may change here. But, its the deal of leaving behind the precious thing of my life….Of all the above A hope can keep you alive for a life time.If you feel that, you can not have a brighter side of life in near future..Go ahead and polish the darker side of it. The attitude of positive mindedness and patience are the instruments to live and love a life.Will see you all..agian.
Good Morning, in case if i dont see you again.GoodAfternoon…GoodEvning…and Good Night..
Got up, with a fantastic and lovely dream last night.
Played foot ball with Hero surya in rain….met so many people..gone on a trip with my most beloved partner of life.
saw 3 idiots again.
Day started with a thanks SMS from my friend ( i wished on her birthday). I then went to a deep depression and rolled ters tears for a long time. I was talking to Chaitu’s (Nani) father. I have many confessions to make.
Then slept for while and then woke up ater 11:00 am. I feel a myself very lonely…when i remember nani. Charan called me from US and wished for the festival that has gone a day before. Most of All ..my stupid and idiot friends are in abroad..Girish, Anil eswar, Bhanu, Chaitu, Sidhrath, Ravi, Jothi. The 3 idots movie says, Always Try Excell, not just struggle for success. Do Things that you love and is passionate about. Never giveup anything for sake of others. and lastly…always have a idiot like me beside you. Charan’s call has put me back to normal state. (Dude….See you soon…if fortune favors).
What good morning means to me…” GoodMorning..”
People greet each other every time they meet. When it is a first time meet of the day, they say.. “Good Morning”…This reminds me the dialouge from my fav movie…TRUMAN SHOW. Truman greets his neighbours…..GoodMorning…in case if i dont see you again..GOOD AFTERNOON…GOOD EVENING and GOOD NIGHT…..!!! a lovely movie.
People take birth….Live…Die… laugh…cry… strive…struggle….some will win ….some other give up…some other try again. People meet…Some say Hi….Some say Bye. Some forget things. All these things happen every day. When it comes to their future there are 3 set of people. Those who let it happen. …Nevermind things happening around. Dont have control over their present and futures. Those who make it happen…The trendsetters, Living life to the max and celebrating every moment of life and last set..those who just Wonder..What Happend. (Fools)
For all the above..Morning is a start for everymans life. A day starts with a fine earl;y morning.
Morning is a gods way of saying One More Time..GO..Live and Make adifference. Touch One’s Heart..Encourage One’s Mind, Inspire One’s Soul and Enjoy the day. make the place around filled with fun and happiness. So i say all my people a GOOD MORNING.
So, Whats Next..?
Life isn’t about waiting for the strom to pass… it’s about learning how to dance in the rain!
This moment in life is not permament.
When things go out of hand and situations look terrific. When the life makes you lose confidence every second, minute and hour passes by. When there looks no hope in a hopeless situation. just remember these words….This moment in life is not permanent. When life makes you get drencehd with fun, joy and happiness. Life makes you to see all the smoother and lovely side of it. When life make you forget all the pain and sturggle that you made for an achievement…..Just remind the same words. …..This moment in life is not permanent…!!
Nothing has an replacement or alternate.
Today, i heard this from …., they said certain things which i belive in and known to me…like We can not stop living for any reason. Life is a wheel, that keeps running. It is our wish to drive in the driection and road we like…how ever it has to keep moving. The debate started.. when it was told that, if we miss something precious and loved one..there is nothing to feel bad about. Instead we can go for a search and find some thing in similar. There is nothing unique in this world. For everything we have an alternate or a duplicate to get satisfied on getting. It sounded to me very foolish. I only belive that, things lost once ..means ..You just lost it. you cannot get it again. If you miss anything which is infront you today, it will be some ones else tomorrow. I dont think i can find some one similar to my loving sister or brother. May be i can buy another bike that is of the same make…but i dont get the feel and attachment with the old bike can be built on new one too. It is for sure that an alternate or a replacement means, providing a little more comfort for life. But there is no replacement or alternate for your precious one. People say ..Life is all about living happy..Anyhow. We eat..sleep..play… ..and make routiene life running…enjoy. All those are momentry, the real happiness for life comes when you win, get what you want. and when your dreams come true. A sincere and honest efforts will never fail. All this was after meet at a tea table in Barista,Jubliee Hills. I had my fav Ginger-Honey Tea and Choclete fudge with HOt choc sauce. 6Jan2010
This is the place for my stand on present decision for my future.
2 Irish Cofee – Got relief from cough&cold…Things to learn from Idiots
As said, didn’t do much for the new year. In Life its every moment to celebrate. The 3 idiots movie…haa what to say ..how much i got spell-bound to the concept and the story of it. This is was my second time to watch on 2 Jan2010. I was not keeping well because of severe throat pain and cold. But i could’nt resist my self from having the Irish coffe at Coffeeday. I had 2 in a row without creme. Guess what….It gave me relief from throat pain and cold. Raghu, my collegue had atropical iceberg. It was my drink for summer with dedth by choclete on a side. ..and I have seen some of my fellow iGATORS in the BIG cinemas, Ameerpet. First time, when i went to watch, i was impressed with this screenplay and the concept of the movie. This time i was keen on some aspects of it. The Lyrics of the title song was so impressive. Specially the lines…” Hum ko kal ki fikar sataati
Woh bus aaj ka jashn manaata
Har lamhe ko khul ke jeeta tha woh..”
“This is my kind of living. Live for this very moment in life. I can’t get my yesterday. I don’t know my tomorrow. I can see, feel and do anything i want is only Today.”
“ People work for making a better tomorrow. They struggle whole day giving up their everything. This may show their dedication and determination……But when that tomorrow comes, instead of enjoying and feel happy…..They start thinking again about tomorrow. What shall i call this now….Stupidity or Intelligence. “
Anything in life keep the motto : Its NOW or NEVER. The movie also talk about this aspect of thinking. This is shown in 2 scenes of the play. One with Farahan(Madhavan). ….Haath Mein letter tha, aur bahar gaadi wait kar rahi thi…Agar mein gaadi pakad liya hotha..tho jindagi kuch aur hotha tha. Second was with Piya (Kareena) at her wedding.
If you miss your luck which is waiting you today, that will be some one else oppurtunity tomorrow.
this year ends with a Long Night’s Moon…
Nothing planned for a blast or party for the new year 2010. I have no reason to celebrate it in a grand way. last year it was an amazing experience in US. I hoped and wished for a lot to happen. there were no selfish wishes or desires, but still nothing gave me a hope or a reason to celebrate this time. I missed and lost my precious pals in the year 2009. Every year on 31 December i recollect all my memories of the previous new year celebrations. Out all i get cherished with the new year party in Vizag steel plant with my college mates and friends in the steel plant township.Vinod reddy, siva , Anil kubireddi, Vijay sekhar, veda narayana. Harika, santhoshi, sravathi, janakiram naidu.hemalatha, shalini. it was big batch of ours. None of us then met again for any of the new year till now. Out of them all girls got married. We neither had a chance to go for any of theirs marriages.may be its all part of the lief’s design and writeup in destiny. Nothing is temporary ..nothing is permanent..its all momentary. It is for this only second and moment of life. Believe it or not. thats the fact…!! In continuation to the life’s journey this year, it also happened to meet new people and also lost some forever.
I went to office today and just spent some required swipe hours there. i played table tennis after along gap of 3 months. it was shifted to new building and have to play in a very small enclosure. Played with freshers, armatures. the day went fine. and i was on pasting for no reason.
nothing lasts for ever….We are only here today.
Watched the 3 Idiots Movie.
I have watched the movie 3 idiots this evening. First things first. The movie was touching and makes every scholar and humanists to introspect themself. The current education system which is focused to make students gain score and grade, has to be revamped in all aspects system and grading methods. The friendship between college students was very realistic and weel screened. If your love is honest and true, it will find you some or the other day and comes to you.
Though there are no much negative points to shoot about the movie, i have my opinions on the making of the film. I can see the editing of the movies was very close to “dil chahta hai”. and the about the opting or making careers for an individual must be self decisive and must progress for excellence. Its all about striving for the excellence and not dieing for Success. This is the same theme of the movie “Tare Zameen Par”. Huh…i didnt see any inputs of the Best sold book of Chetan ”5.someone”. The preface of the book narrates a little in the movie. I don’t think this was the make from the book. Sorry chetan, Even my expectation was that it is based on your book. Later i saw only a few elements were extracted. What so ever and How ever, this is into my fav colection of movies. Swades…TZP…DCH..Slumdog millioniare…3Idiots.
A Long weekend, spent in short
Ha, yet another loong weekend. But there nothing much to put on it to here. It was less obvious this time.Went to the SVM @ roadno 36. this is was my first visit there. People would definately enjoy the stuff there to the max, if and only if we go in with a crowd. the video game on the full recliner seat oooh..cant put them in words. This is a gamers heaven. As i mentioned heaven…..then waht would we call a heaven with out ___ elixer….!! so there is an Extreme sports bar on the fourth floor. Haa cant explain the features of it any more..Simple..Goa nd Enjoy. Just rock and ruin the time….!!
Saturday just got over with a little adventure on my bike, after having a stomachfull meal at kritunga(rayalaseema special) i cant start and finish my meal there with out the roasted quill. this was the best part of the day at Cremestone icecream. We ordered something and somethign else came in front of Us.hahahaaa….and time moves on and on….Sunday woke up very very late. had my whole day diet at BigByte. of course all this was not all alone.
Be Independent-
Some people have the habit of taking decisions on external factors around them. they magnify things which need a minor consideration or have no weight in . you must try to solve your problem by yourself. When some one lets you know things happenings around are leading to some bad consequences, do not blindly take any hasty decisons.
First make things clear, that if they are Right in content, and the People are right in their Intent. Never go by any words that people put on to you. You can consult people for a suggestion, or to double verify if the decision made by you is Right or Wrong. At the end you must be the person to take care of you and to take the wise decision about the incident or problem.
Some people, get influenced by words and carried away by their fellow men/women.Then they waste their most precious time in thinking about the unwanted and irrrlevent stuff. They spoil their state of mind. Then as a impulsive person, they also take up some foolish decisions based on the comments they received about them.Never ..Ever Do that….! This is not the true meaning of being Independent or Individual.
people who have become great and successful are so, because they have taken some risks and independent decisions in their life. it is said that …” To become great you have to cross one ditch or the other in your life.
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