Life is Beautiful….!

In continuation to my struggle of winning an women’s heart, i am still getting tumbled. i have no courage to express my like for her. i have no opportunity to take chance of telling my love to her. with these pulling down factors in my mind, i still keep a hope of win in this phase of my life. its funny…!! .When i share few of my concerns, difficulties i meet in this regard to my friends and near people, they advice me with some consoling words like….”true love never fails”..”honest heart can never get hurt..” ..”she too loves you equally,praveen..! “  “… No girl will come out to express her love first, its you who has to take the call…” and so on. 

                                            So,where do i stand now..?  The answer is..” where i was at the beginning..”   other than few people getting to know about things happening with me partially and unclearly.There are a set of heads, who knew all about my pain and problem encapsulated in my deep heart. I never show up my feelings so easily in peoples front. Anyway its the quality of friends who can diagnose you from the layers of skin. I am now 7 seas far from every one, and my special one too. My friends call me up, mail me asking..” how do i feel now, missing her..? ” I can understand their intention of asking, it is not that, i am gaining unbearable weight of unexpressed love..its the strength of increased love proportional to the incremented distance between our hearts..”

I say them, anything can happen in the mean time. the probability is very high that, circumstances can take her even more far from me. The day i come back home, the physical distance can get splashed away, but the influencing factors ( ….) can create a vacuum, where my words and feelings can not travel, can not have its existence and has no value.

 Does, she know all these…? i have no clue for this. all i know(feel) is, she looks happy in my presence.certainly i have the same place like other people who she know. Praveen has no priority in her mind and heart. She is unbaised. The best thing i like in her. As per the psychology study- “our instincts will get to know things before we really start to think about them…” If this is true, then she knew where i placed her in my life..!  I want to promise her of giving every happiness i can in this world. I pledge to her parents that, i will never make her feel their absence. I love her.!

                                                              What if  i give a try..? Is it taking a test of luck. If she like me equally, her conditions may not make her to speak out. This may result in different way. The normal routines will become abnormal and unusual. Things that keep me happy and give the hope will no longer be alive. i don’t want to miss these things.i dont want to miss you…the words behind will can never be heard, my feelings can never be felt…and your place can not be given to some one else. she is precious,she is unique and down to earth for me…! As i care you and your opinions i keep my consensus deep in heart, infact supressed them a lot. What shall i do..now?